DOMINION OF GREY

When I was diagnosed with my first mental illness I was about fifteen years old. It was explained to me like this… …if you think of inherently happy people as being in the white and severely depressed people as being in the black…you live in the grey… …and, to me, that made perfect sense. It […]

BY THE POWER OF POD

When something unexpected happens adjustments are necessary. Sometimes an entire revamp needs to happen. Other times the slightest shift in a new direction is all it takes to find your footing again. My diagnosis took me by surprise and threw me for a loop. It forced me to reimagine my post-secondary plans and that left […]

MIND OVER THE ATLANTIC

I’ve pinched myself a million times. Literally. There’s welts and bruises. And I still cannot believe it is true… Me, the gal with Type 1 Diabetes and a bunch of mental illnesses, was asked to come and sit on a panel, next to several awe-inspiring folks, and share my story. The story of how I […]

MY BODY & ME

And another piece ended up on the floor. I was trying on my entire closet worth of clothing and, much to my dismay and embarassment, very little of it fit properly…if it fit at all. I was recently offered an amazing opportunity but that opportunity forced my hand and this impromptu fashion show. Has it […]

IT’S BROKE AND I DIDN’T BUY IT

This is not a ploy for attention. I repeat. This is not a ploy for attention. So FUCK you for saying it is. Chronic illness is not something anyone wants. If it were available in-store or online it would sit on those dusty shelves receiving discount after discount. But it would never leave, never find […]

THE RESOLUTION SOLUTION

It’s a new year. We earthbound folk have circled the sun again. Whoo-fucking-hoo. I suspect we humans are creatures of habit regardless of our desire for spontaneity. We want structure though we often shun it. A game of cat and mouse ensues as we build routine and simultaneously evade it. It is thought the practice […]

HOLIDAYS WITHOUT THE HAPPY

This post is going to come out of nowhere. Think Nowhere Man from The Beatles’ Yellow Submarine movie. Jeremy. There’s quite literally a million and one things traveling at light speed through my brain right now. And that makes organizing thoughts and cohesion nearly impossible. Truth: it’s fucking impossible. I wanted share some of my […]

JUST ANXIETY & ME

Having been together a while, we have a routine. But it doesn’t mean our relationship lacks surprise. Anxiety has definitely continued to bring the unexpected in to my life. A lot of people do not understand what it means to live with mental illness. Some people view it as a mechanism employed to shirk responsibility. […]

SLIP(STREAM) AND FALL

Okay. I think I may have finally digested and decompressed from my camp experience. I think. It has taken me a lot longer than I thought it would to process this year’s Slipstream. And I’m not sure I even have a solid reason why. My approach to camp was much different than last year (as […]

STARVED FOR PERFECTION

We are living in a digital world but I am not a digital girl. And that makes me feel out of place. But, at the same time, I am not entirely sure it is a place I want to be. I’m not sure it is the place for me. Maybe I’m too fucking old. Maybe […]